My Addiction

Hi everyone. It's been a while since my last blog, but I've been slacking on pretty much everything. SORRY! Anyway, recently I'd come down with a severe cold OUT OF NOWHERE! I was fine Sunday, September 6th. Then Monday I woke up with the COLD FROM HELL!! You know how you can kinda feel an ailment coming on?? Well, somehow I skipped that part. Anyway, it got to the point where I couldn't breathe... AT ALL!! I seriously thought I was going to have to go the doctor. It felt like my lungs were collapsing. So, during this time I did not smoke. The breathing problems still linger, however I did smoke 3 cigarettes today. It didn't make me feel good at all, as you probably can imagine. I couldn't even hit them normally. So, I've decided to give the whole quitting thing a try. I mean, when i came up with the idea, I considered how much money I actually waste on cigarettes. Check it out; I average a pack a day at 6 bucks a day. That's $42 a week. Which comes up to $84 bi-weekly. Which is the equivalent to $168 a month!! WTF AM I THINKING!!!??? Okay, I ain't broke, but that's a lot of cash to go up in smoke, if you get what I saying. That's ridiculous. That's two of my car note payments in a month. Maybe that's why it's always late. LOL. Is it really worth it?? I'm going to try my hardest to stop. It's sooooo hard though. Last time I quit when I was prego because I was prego. I had to choose between my baby and squares... Not at all a hard decision. But now, I'm not, so it's F*&^%$# hard!!! Now the two days I didn't weren't hard cause I couldn't breathe. I feel waaay better and I'm ready to get back into the swing of things. I'm actually fiending right now thinking about it. AAAAHHH!!! I can do it. I know I can. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...